A lesson I've learned in 2012 was that, life is never the way it's supposed to be.
Do you wanna know why I think so?
Well, here's the story.
Back in 2011, when I first moved away from home into a new country, I thought to myself, "Wow! What a nice change this would be. I would get to meet new people! New friends! Have a new life! And I didn't have to get myself involve in anymore dramas that I used to have back home..."
I thought wrong.
Things were worse here.
I hated it.
Fitting in wasn't my best skill, hence I did everything, and I meant EVERYTHING to fit in. But it helped. I did get into the social circle. I had a group of friends that I would hang out with during recess, outside school and during the weekends. I was ACTUALLY having fun!! I was being invited to parties, social hangouts, sleepovers.. you name it!
But one day, everything came crashing down. I was in total depressed mode. The person who I thought I could trust, can never be trusted again. And by then, my "friends" just treated me like I was some stranger to them. Like I had some disease and never wanted to come close to me. I had people talking behind my back, as they were stabbing me with knives when I wasn't looking. I had no one to cling onto except myself.
Luckily, I was strong enough to pull myself back together. I told myself that all I was there for was for the best of my education. I needed not a social circle. I needed not to fit in. I needed not any friends because seriously I couldn't trust anyone anymore. I picked up my own broken pieces and put them back together. Fortunately, I made a few good friends that I could rely on, but I still needed time to know if I could trust them. But I managed. I managed to pull my life back together and I can now say that I am standing strong on my own two feet.
By now, I've finally realized that,
Life is not the way it's supposed to be.. It's the way it is. But the way we cope with it is what makes the difference.
With love, xoxo
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