Induction

Hello, 

Induction was today :) 

What do I mean by Induction you asked? I "google-ed" it and the actual definition for it is "A formal introduction to a new job or position." So yea I had my Year 12 Induction today for the class of 2013'. 

In the morning, we were briefed on what to do; where to stand; where to sit; what to say; how to say it; how to walk up the stage; how to shake hands; how to walk down the stage... and by doing all that without embarrassing ourselves, and also not to embarrass the school.

After we had the briefing that was only supposed to be about 15 minutes but dragged on to around 45 minutes, we all headed to our classes. THANK GOODNESS I had music at that time. I was totally not keen for any subjects that I had to use my brain to think. 

During music, I learned how to play the song Thrift Shop on the piano... YES, I was THAT bored, but music was fun as always. It's just another bludge (when you just lay around all day) subject anyway. 

After that, as a RESPONSIBLE senior of the college and also not to mention, the Tennis Captain of the college ;) I had duties to fulfill... I had to run around the whole school hunting down several teachers in charge to talk about co-curricular activities for tennis and so on. I had to make several calls to different tennis academies to seek for training coaches etc. It was pretty hectic!

Then came to the actual Induction ceremony. We were all so nervous. Lining up in rows before walking in the hall where everyone had already been seated down waiting for our special arrival. We all looked too fabulous! We all looked fashionably immaculate! Walking down the hallway to our seats was the most scariest thing ever! Every single person in the hall had their eyes on you and all you could do is smile and look at everyone! Once we took our seats, we had short speeches by the heads of the school and so on. 

We then had to take a pledge and head up the stage to get our badges :) That was one of the proudest moment I've had of myself. I was proud that I've came this far to achieve what I've achieved today. I'm 18 now. I've grown up. I'm no longer a little girl. I would have to make big decisions for myself in life. And this was the first step. I made the decision to put behind every single bad memory that I had when I was here in Australia for the past few years. I made the decision to stay here for another year and to go through my last year of college and to see how everything would go for my university later on in the year. I made the decision to make my family proud, especially my daddy because since I was a kid, he has always wanted to let me have an education here in Australia, so I would have a better life. :') 

Just a few pictures of today :) 

Just our Senior 2013 badge :)

Melissa and Justin :) My Asian Crew :)

The best Mom ever! Wouldn't have got this far without her :)

P.S Milla gave me my belated birthday present today too! OMG!

With love, xoxo

No Regrets

Growing up, I realized that there isn't anything we can do to change the past, but we have every choice to change our future. 

I have dwelled upon the past for a long time before I finally realized it wasn't worth it at all. I have held onto so many memories that I wish I could relive again so I could make it right. But that would be impossible. 

I'm not saying that we shouldn't hold on to memories and treasure any of them. I think we all should only treasure the memories that are everlasting and only had a huge impact on us. 

Just like how I still always remember the memories I have with my dad. It has been almost 7 years since his passing, but I never forget the memories we shared, and I will definitely not forget him. These are the kind of memories that we should always remember because they are the ones that are irreplaceable. 

Regretting something that we can do and achieve better on in our future, right now, is not what we are supposed to do. Sometimes we just have to let go. We have to let go memories that would hold us back from doing what we love, what we want to achieve and what we want our life to be. 

I now know that, 

You can't have a better tomorrow if you're always thinking about yesterday. 

With love, xoxo

Senior Year!

Hello, 

2013. A new year. A new start. A new beginning. 

2013 is also my last year in college. My Senior Year. 

My senior year already had a good start. By having the first day of school being cancelled due to severe weather conditions, which was pretty funny. Because we had the same issue last year, on the same day, on the first day of school too. Coincidental much? I think so. 

Just a screenshot of the notice that was sent to us by the school :)

Anyway, today is the 2nd day of school, and it went pretty well so far. There were a lot of changes in school; its surroundings and its education system. 

We have new and refurbished bathrooms and HOLY SHIET! They look AMAZINGLY FABULOUSLY GORGEOUS! They look like freaking hotel bathrooms. They look better than my own bathroom. LEGIT. 

The awkward moment when your school bathroom looks like this o.O

I got forced and dragged by a friend of mine to audition for my school's musical, and I was not prepared to sing the song that we were meant to sing at the audition. I had to speed read the score sheet and sight read everything. It wasn't that fun. Before heading into the audition hall, I choked. It was like my voice box just decided not to work!? I couldn't even talk or say anything. I WAS FREAKING OUT! I walked in and found out there were 6 teachers, sitting in a line, all eyes on you. And I started singing. They had smiles on their faces, so I hope I did well. It was my first time ever to audition for anything, and I was pretty happy with it. I guess there's always a first to everything. :) 

Tomorrow will be Induction Day for Year 12's. This means we will officially be the seniors of the college. We would be labelled as the leaders of the school. We would have to walk up stage, receive a pledge, shake the principal's hand, walk down stage and obviously try not to face palm in front of the whole school. I doubt I would, but seriously, fingers crossed.

I'm a Senior :)

With love, xoxo

Life is not the way it's supposed to be...

Hello,

A lesson I've learned in 2012 was that, life is never the way it's supposed to be. 

Do you wanna know why I think so? 

Well, here's the story. 

Back in 2011, when I first moved away from home into a new country, I thought to myself, "Wow! What a nice change this would be. I would get to meet new people! New friends! Have a new life! And I didn't have to get myself involve in anymore dramas that I used to have back home..." 

I thought wrong. 

Things were worse here. 

I hated it. 

Fitting in wasn't my best skill, hence I did everything, and I meant EVERYTHING to fit in. But it helped. I did get into the social circle. I had a group of friends that I would hang out with during recess, outside school and during the weekends. I was ACTUALLY having fun!! I was being invited to parties, social hangouts, sleepovers.. you name it! 

But one day, everything came crashing down. I was in total depressed mode. The person who I thought I could trust, can never be trusted again. And by then, my "friends" just treated me like I was some stranger to them. Like I had some disease and never wanted to come close to me. I had people talking behind my back, as they were stabbing me with knives when I wasn't looking. I had no one to cling onto except myself.

Luckily, I was strong enough to pull myself back together. I told myself that all I was there for was for the best of my education. I needed not a social circle. I needed not to fit in. I needed not any friends because seriously I couldn't trust anyone anymore. I picked up my own broken pieces and put them back together. Fortunately, I made a few good friends that I could rely on, but I still needed time to know if I could trust them. But I managed. I managed to pull my life back together and I can now say that I am standing strong on my own two feet.

By now, I've finally realized that, 

Life is not the way it's supposed to be.. It's the way it is. But the way we cope with it is what makes the difference.

With love, xoxo