No Regrets

Growing up, I realized that there isn't anything we can do to change the past, but we have every choice to change our future. 

I have dwelled upon the past for a long time before I finally realized it wasn't worth it at all. I have held onto so many memories that I wish I could relive again so I could make it right. But that would be impossible. 

I'm not saying that we shouldn't hold on to memories and treasure any of them. I think we all should only treasure the memories that are everlasting and only had a huge impact on us. 

Just like how I still always remember the memories I have with my dad. It has been almost 7 years since his passing, but I never forget the memories we shared, and I will definitely not forget him. These are the kind of memories that we should always remember because they are the ones that are irreplaceable. 

Regretting something that we can do and achieve better on in our future, right now, is not what we are supposed to do. Sometimes we just have to let go. We have to let go memories that would hold us back from doing what we love, what we want to achieve and what we want our life to be. 

I now know that, 

You can't have a better tomorrow if you're always thinking about yesterday. 

With love, xoxo

Senior Year!

Hello, 

2013. A new year. A new start. A new beginning. 

2013 is also my last year in college. My Senior Year. 

My senior year already had a good start. By having the first day of school being cancelled due to severe weather conditions, which was pretty funny. Because we had the same issue last year, on the same day, on the first day of school too. Coincidental much? I think so. 

Just a screenshot of the notice that was sent to us by the school :)

Anyway, today is the 2nd day of school, and it went pretty well so far. There were a lot of changes in school; its surroundings and its education system. 

We have new and refurbished bathrooms and HOLY SHIET! They look AMAZINGLY FABULOUSLY GORGEOUS! They look like freaking hotel bathrooms. They look better than my own bathroom. LEGIT. 

The awkward moment when your school bathroom looks like this o.O

I got forced and dragged by a friend of mine to audition for my school's musical, and I was not prepared to sing the song that we were meant to sing at the audition. I had to speed read the score sheet and sight read everything. It wasn't that fun. Before heading into the audition hall, I choked. It was like my voice box just decided not to work!? I couldn't even talk or say anything. I WAS FREAKING OUT! I walked in and found out there were 6 teachers, sitting in a line, all eyes on you. And I started singing. They had smiles on their faces, so I hope I did well. It was my first time ever to audition for anything, and I was pretty happy with it. I guess there's always a first to everything. :) 

Tomorrow will be Induction Day for Year 12's. This means we will officially be the seniors of the college. We would be labelled as the leaders of the school. We would have to walk up stage, receive a pledge, shake the principal's hand, walk down stage and obviously try not to face palm in front of the whole school. I doubt I would, but seriously, fingers crossed.

I'm a Senior :)

With love, xoxo

Life is not the way it's supposed to be...

Hello,

A lesson I've learned in 2012 was that, life is never the way it's supposed to be. 

Do you wanna know why I think so? 

Well, here's the story. 

Back in 2011, when I first moved away from home into a new country, I thought to myself, "Wow! What a nice change this would be. I would get to meet new people! New friends! Have a new life! And I didn't have to get myself involve in anymore dramas that I used to have back home..." 

I thought wrong. 

Things were worse here. 

I hated it. 

Fitting in wasn't my best skill, hence I did everything, and I meant EVERYTHING to fit in. But it helped. I did get into the social circle. I had a group of friends that I would hang out with during recess, outside school and during the weekends. I was ACTUALLY having fun!! I was being invited to parties, social hangouts, sleepovers.. you name it! 

But one day, everything came crashing down. I was in total depressed mode. The person who I thought I could trust, can never be trusted again. And by then, my "friends" just treated me like I was some stranger to them. Like I had some disease and never wanted to come close to me. I had people talking behind my back, as they were stabbing me with knives when I wasn't looking. I had no one to cling onto except myself.

Luckily, I was strong enough to pull myself back together. I told myself that all I was there for was for the best of my education. I needed not a social circle. I needed not to fit in. I needed not any friends because seriously I couldn't trust anyone anymore. I picked up my own broken pieces and put them back together. Fortunately, I made a few good friends that I could rely on, but I still needed time to know if I could trust them. But I managed. I managed to pull my life back together and I can now say that I am standing strong on my own two feet.

By now, I've finally realized that, 

Life is not the way it's supposed to be.. It's the way it is. But the way we cope with it is what makes the difference.

With love, xoxo